All they see is the negative and that makes you who you are. 

There's no one in the world that can even know what you go through. 

Let em walk a mile in your shoes and then they can talk

I am riding solo in a two lane path.

sometimes you just got to suck it up and deal with it.

then you roll with it.

spoiled bitch

Ever since i got off all my crazy diets to lose weight, i directed my dieting in a new direction. I now have a goal of gaining muscle mass, and to do that i need to intake double the calories i was consuming before.

high protein diet. period.  Which means i get to eat more variety of food then i did before!!!! :D

Every single week i go to either: Brazilian BBQ, Mediterranean, and/or korean BBQ. Sometimes i visit all three in one week. Semi healthy, nutritious, and delicious.
hmm... good to say i have a rider that is willing to indulge with me and get fat..
even though she never lets me hear the end of it. 

 hand roll party at my house 1-2x a week with raw fish, sliced cucumbers, fish roe, seaweed salad, avocados, radish sprouts, roasted seaweed and rice. Super satisfying....in fact I'm probably going to want have a hand roll party tomorrow. yes please.

Live good, eat good, look good.

word.

Only a BEST friend can see the pain behind a fake smile.

Thank you to all my besties for always picking me up when i need it and 

not even knowing it.

#esbach

Spent the whole weekend with an estrogen party. Surprisingly it wore me out, but I regained energy every chance I can get napping everywhere.. Overall I love San Diego! It's earthy people, modern architecture, luscious plants, breezy ocean sides! Amazing food adventures, I would definitely come back and visit again!! Thank you San Diego for a fun filled weekend!

my cherry got popped!

I came.

I saw. 

I conquered.

There is always a first time for everything. In my case: a RAVE!

I'm peaking a different century of my life soon, and i wait till NOW to experience my first rave! In my mind, i always imagined a large dark club, with a bunch of people jumping to trance, and giving each other light shows and rolling of ecstasy.

But still i needed to cross this off my bucket list. 

       

Based on a spur of the moment peer pressure session, i succumbed to the idea of going to a rave the weekend before Halloween. "escape into wonderland" That morning i had ABSOLUTELY no idea i would end up at a rave later that evening....Or even be out and about.... But as chance always seems to find me, i gave into the peer pressure of friends and ended up going on this wild spur of the moment sabbatical. I was really in for it... 

As we entered the gates of "escape into wonderland" I knew that my cherry has been officially popped. It was definitely an experience.. It was just like a giant outdoor club. I had a lot of fun <3 I can say that i would probably want to do it again!