All they see is the negative and that makes you who you are. 

There's no one in the world that can even know what you go through. 

Let em walk a mile in your shoes and then they can talk

I am riding solo in a two lane path.

sometimes you just got to suck it up and deal with it.

then you roll with it.

spoiled bitch

Ever since i got off all my crazy diets to lose weight, i directed my dieting in a new direction. I now have a goal of gaining muscle mass, and to do that i need to intake double the calories i was consuming before.

high protein diet. period.  Which means i get to eat more variety of food then i did before!!!! :D

Every single week i go to either: Brazilian BBQ, Mediterranean, and/or korean BBQ. Sometimes i visit all three in one week. Semi healthy, nutritious, and delicious.
hmm... good to say i have a rider that is willing to indulge with me and get fat..
even though she never lets me hear the end of it. 

 hand roll party at my house 1-2x a week with raw fish, sliced cucumbers, fish roe, seaweed salad, avocados, radish sprouts, roasted seaweed and rice. Super satisfying....in fact I'm probably going to want have a hand roll party tomorrow. yes please.

Live good, eat good, look good.

word.

Only a BEST friend can see the pain behind a fake smile.

Thank you to all my besties for always picking me up when i need it and 

not even knowing it.

#esbach

Spent the whole weekend with an estrogen party. Surprisingly it wore me out, but I regained energy every chance I can get napping everywhere.. Overall I love San Diego! It's earthy people, modern architecture, luscious plants, breezy ocean sides! Amazing food adventures, I would definitely come back and visit again!! Thank you San Diego for a fun filled weekend!

my cherry got popped!

I came.

I saw. 

I conquered.

There is always a first time for everything. In my case: a RAVE!

I'm peaking a different century of my life soon, and i wait till NOW to experience my first rave! In my mind, i always imagined a large dark club, with a bunch of people jumping to trance, and giving each other light shows and rolling of ecstasy.

But still i needed to cross this off my bucket list. 

       

Based on a spur of the moment peer pressure session, i succumbed to the idea of going to a rave the weekend before Halloween. "escape into wonderland" That morning i had ABSOLUTELY no idea i would end up at a rave later that evening....Or even be out and about.... But as chance always seems to find me, i gave into the peer pressure of friends and ended up going on this wild spur of the moment sabbatical. I was really in for it... 

As we entered the gates of "escape into wonderland" I knew that my cherry has been officially popped. It was definitely an experience.. It was just like a giant outdoor club. I had a lot of fun <3 I can say that i would probably want to do it again!

pet peeves

I generally tend to be a pretty patient person, and can up stand a high tolerance for ignorance. I'm not gonna judge because i am pretty sure i probably do some of the things that annoy myself as well and i just don't know that i do it (ok just kidding most likely i do know that i do it...).  Here is the list of biggest pet peeves that really grinds my gears...

1. If i let you go through my phone, and let you scroll through my photos: do NOT delete any pictures from MY phone!! I don't care how fugly you think you look, its just straight up rude to delete the pictures out of MY phone just because you don't like how you look. If you really detest of the photo, ASK ME, and i will gladly remove you from the photo by editing, or just deleting the photo.

2. If i have been with you all day or for a long time/while. I probably already  know that you are tired. PLEASE do not remind me every 30 minutes how tired you are, because I KNOW! i am probably just as tired as you! In fact, the more you complain about how tired you are, it tires me out even more...

3. CRAPPY DRIVERS. Unfortunately i live in Alhambra which is the friggin CAPITOL of bad drivers because apparently this is where all the friggin asians live!! seriously.... FML.  I have decided that i will carry a carton of EGGS in my car! So if you see a silver toyota camry, STAY OUT OF MY WAY do NOT piss me off... i will be locked and loaded, i have impeccable aim! (or so i would like to believe)


4. People that eat loudly.... Its just plain out gross. I know the majority of men swallow their food, and eat like cavemen.... but if i can eat pretty SO CAN YOU! close your mouth when you eat PLEASE!



5. People who snore.... Enough said. If you snore around me be prepared for a sock to get shoved down your throat.  Like seriously? Ladies that snore: i have declined sleepovers because of this issue... and grinding your teeth?? seriously, it scares the shit out of me when i am woken up to it...

6. People that try to call me out... I was MADE perfect like this.... If you try to point out my perfectness be prepared to get called REALLY called out !      >:)


7. Girls at the gym who are NOT fit that wear just a sports bra and shorts/ pants. WEAR A FREAKING shirt! its a sports BRA not a sports shirt?!  you look like a freaking attention whore, and this is coming from someone that probably is a attention whore... unless you have an amazing body and have six pack abs... thats the only exception... but keep all your flab to yourself please??

8. Guys that wear singlets, and super short shorts.... singlets= douchebag  
when guys wear super short shorts, not a good look. I don't care how defined your legs are... just keep all your junk in your trunk please~

unless you look like this, then i BEG you to wear nothing but short shorts

9. Asking me same questions repeatedly... If i didn't have a chapstick 10 minutes ago, what makes you think i have one now?

10. People that get mad at you, and then realize it was their own fault in the first place, and then not apologizing for it.... Its like, If you f*cked up call or text back a simple "my bad" will even do~

midnight sonata

i did NOTHING for valentines day. i took my daughter and spent it alone at my parents house.
PLEASE stop asking me.
no i am not sad, it was actually quite enjoyable and relaxing.
i can say i had an amazing mothers day


on a side note got to finish alot of my scrap book and i must say its looking pretty snazzy thanks to my creative bad ass <3 i lock it down on crafting. i got handles when it comes down to getting artsy fartsy.

my second page to my scrappy.

reflections

WOW its really been a while since the last time i had posted... As i was reading back into this blog, it had made me realize that over the years i have changed drastically. All of my worries and goals seem so petty now. I cant necessarily say that life was a complete ass and completely bitch slapped my ass...But life has taken its course and ran it so hard that i became physically and emotionally drained. I realize now, that being the perfect person is absolutly absurd. I was constantly trying to be someone i clearly am not. I see now where things went wrong in the first place, I should have never tried to be someone im not, and instead embrace my own skin. The perfect person will take me as i am, crazy and all~

My outlook on life has made a 180 transformation. I can honestly say that i am a COMPLETE different person compared to 2 years ago, shoot.. i can actually say compared to even one year ago! If i knew that my life was gonna turn out like this i would have done so many things differently....

i confidently ride on the saying: When life gives you lemons, make some f*cking bomb ass sugar free lemonade!

i got a reality check, and had friends aid me back to realize that im an AMAZING person in itself already as i am. Why would anyone want to change that!?

I bounced out of the darkness, started a healthier fit lifestyle, took those damn lemons and made amazing lemonade,  and then came back hotter than before!

 i am now Jen 2.0

you wont be able to fuck with me. i am now untouchable

#ladyhulk

karen and ryan xmas photoshoot

secret santa 2012

So its been a while since i posted anything guess i have been super busy!

So for this xmas a few of us decided to do a secret santa!! pretty much my first secret santa party. I have done gift exchange parties in the past like white elephant i think thats what they call it... but never a secret santa! it was surprisingly really fun!

michelle, jodes, sue, turd and me

our secret santa meal

left to right:

cherng, suepark, turd, and jodes

turd