Bliss in my scars

I've been insulted, put down, made fun of, told I wasn't good enough, discriminated, kicked while I was down, defeated, rejected, humiliated, belittled, dumped, criticized,abused, disapproved of, judged, punished, lost faith, been hopeless, suicidal,  pushed and shoved, beaten down, I have even been shot at but I still stand here stronger than ever. ㅡmy past does not define me but built me. 

I only grow and move forward. 

I refuse to go dwell in the past. When you hit rock bottom you have no where else left to go but to rise up!!

I am not ashamed of my past, but yet I'm proud of what it built me into. 

My physical and emotional battle scars made me into the warrior I am today, and I continue to only get stronger. 

Have faith in yourself and build your story from it. 

Sit still look pretty

Could dress up

To get love

But guess what?

I'm never gonna be that girl

Who's living in a Barbie world

Could wake up

In make up,

And play dumb

Pretending that I need a boy

Who's gonna treat me like a toy

I know the other girlies wanna wear expensive things

Like diamond rings

But I don't wanna be the puppet that you're playing on a string

This queen don't need a king

Oh, I don't know what you've been told

But this gal right here's gonna rule the world

Yeah, that is where I'm gonna be because I wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still, look pretty

You get off on your 9 to 5

Dream of picket fences and trophy wives

But no, I'm never gonna be 'cause I don't wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still look pretty

Mr. Right could be nice for one night

But then he wanna take control

And I would rather fly solo

That Snow White

She did right

In her life

Had 7 men to do the chores

'Cause that's not what a lady's for

The only thing a boy's gonna give a girl for free's captivity

And I might love me some vanilla but I'm not that sugar sweet

Call me HBIC

Oh, I don't know what you've been told

But this gal right here's gonna rule the world

Yeah, that is where I'm gonna be, because I wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still, look pretty

You get off on your 9 to 5

Dream of picket fences and trophy wives

But no, I'm never gonna be, 'cause I don't wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still look pretty

[2x]

Sure, I'm a pretty girl

Up in a pretty world

But they say pretty hurts

And I don't wanna sit still

I'm a pretty girl

Up in a pretty world

But no, I won't sit still, look pretty

Oh, I don't know what you've been told

But this gal right here's gonna rule the world

Yeah, that is where I'm gonna be because I wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still, look pretty

You get off on your 9 to 5

Dream of picket fences and trophy wives

But no, I'm never gonna be 'cause I don't wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still look pretty

Oh, I don't know what you've been told

But this gal right here's gonna rule the world

Yeah, that is where I'm gonna be because I wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still, look pretty

You get off on your 9 to 5

Dream of picket fences and trophy wives

But no, I'm never gonna be 'cause I don't wanna be

No, I don't wanna sit still, look pretty

Sit still, look pretty [4x]

 

Grown to understand that I'm comfortable in my

Own self that I do not need someone else to complete me, I'm perfect all in myself all by myself and I have never been happier in my life once I had realized this.

Fight song

http://youtu.be/e8qDOGLCSFo

"Fight Song"

Like a small boat

On the ocean

Sending big waves

Into motion

Like how a single word

Can make a heart open

I might only have one match

But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn't say

Wrecking balls inside my brain

I will scream them loud tonight

Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song

Take back my life song

Prove I'm alright song

My power's turned on

Starting right now I'll be strong

I'll play my fight song

And I don't really care if nobody else believes

'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep

Everybody's worried about me

In too deep

Say I'm in too deep (in too deep)

And it's been two years

I miss my home

But there's a fire burning in my bones

Still believe

Yeah, I still believe

And all those things I didn't say

Wrecking balls inside my brain

I will scream them loud tonight

Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song

Take back my life song

Prove I'm alright song

My power's turned on

Starting right now I'll be strong

I'll play my fight song

And I don't really care if nobody else believes

'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat

On the ocean

Sending big waves

Into motion

Like how a single word

Can make a heart open

I might only have one match

But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song (Hey!)

Take back my life song (Hey!)

Prove I'm alright song (Hey!)

My power's turned on

Starting right now I'll be strong (I'll be strong)

I'll play my fight song

And I don't really care if nobody else believes

'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

No I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Paths

Take one step forward only to take 5 steps backwards...

Single parenting

Everyone has advice to offer about parenting... But have they actually tried parenting by themselves? It's so easy to give advice I can give advice and my two cents all day everyday, but actually parenting by yourself as a single parent? It's freaking difficult. I'm not perfect, I'm doing this by myself, riding SOLO. In not perfect but I'm trying the best that I can. 

Walk a mile in my shoes and then you can criticize me all you want.

Trying to make it work the best I can with what I have to offer.

Reality check

Never leave yourself vulnerable 

Valentine's Day 2016

Perfect relationship for me doesn't necessarily mean I need to get married and settled, I just want someone I can stay with and love on and grow old together and have someone to just really lean on if needed.

I don't need to be taken care of but I want to feel like I am loved if I'm going to be in a relationship.

I don't need the fancy cars, purses and nice things I just want to have that unconditional love that won't be broken by worldly things. 

Love on me and I'll love you back times 10. 

Treat me right and I'll give you the world.